🌍 Part 1 - Why Is Conversation Still So Hard?
A Believer’s Honest Struggle
I speak with people every day, yet conversation still feels difficult. A single comment can hurt me deeply, and sometimes I say things without thinking and wound others. Though talking is a part of daily life, I've come to realize it requires practice—intentional, spiritual practice.
Especially as a believer, this challenge feels weightier. I speak about God's love, yet my own words often lack it. I pray with devotion, yet in conversation I am impatient, unwise, and even harsh. There are days I walk away from a discussion feeling ashamed and ask myself, “Why did I say that? Why couldn’t I have been gentler?”
🙏 Shouldn’t My Words Be Different If I Follow Jesus?
I know that as someone who follows Christ, my words should reflect Him. But in reality, my emotions, pride, and instincts often take control. The older I get, the more I see how stubborn I’ve become—and how easily I react when others say uncomfortable things.
And then the regret comes. “I shouldn’t have said that.” “There was a better way to speak.” “Did I just hurt that person?” Spiritual maturity isn’t measured by how many Bible verses I know, but by how my attitude—and my words—change over time.
💡 The Problem Isn’t My Words—It’s My Heart
Jesus said, “The mouth speaks what the heart is full of.” (Matthew 12:34) What I say is a reflection of what’s going on inside me. When I speak harshly or react too quickly, it usually points to something deeper—unresolved emotion, hidden pride, or wounds I haven’t surrendered.
🏋️♀️ Seeing Conversation as Spiritual Training
Following Jesus isn’t just about church or theology—it’s about how I respond in everyday situations. And conversation? It’s one of the most frequent and challenging spiritual workouts.
Practicing how to listen well. Pausing before I speak. Holding back anger. These aren’t just good habits—they’re ways of becoming more like Jesus.
🧎 I’m Still a Disciple in Training
There is no such thing as a perfect conversation. We are all fragile and learning. What matters is not how polished I sound, but how much I try to reflect Christ in my words—even after I fail.
If you're reading this and feel the same, know this: you're not alone. I’m still learning too. And in this journey of trial, failure, and grace, may our speech become increasingly full of truth, mercy, and love.
🕊️ Scripture to Reflect On
“The mouth speaks what the heart is full of.” – Matthew 12:34
🙏 A Simple Prayer
Lord, help me not just to fix my words, but to transform my heart. May Your Spirit guide my conversations. Remind me I’m still a disciple in training. Amen.